First of all, you must find a teacher. You must understand the teacher — not only the surface of the words, but also what is often explained indirectly through examples from the old relationship between student and teacher. The teacher speaks to you concretely, and sometimes the answer becomes clear only later. The path has its own time, and learning patience is essential. If the first thing the teacher teaches is Zazen, that is all right. Everything else remains a matter of free choice.
When you wake up in the morning and look at the space in front of you, that space contains everything: your life, what you were yesterday, what you were ten years ago, all the places where you were happy, and all the places where you were deeply discouraged.
You see your life and ask: where should I go today? Is what I am living now enough?
What you perceive are all the expectations handed to you by those close to you. It is the desire to fill the whole space and to pass on something more valuable than what you received. It is you.
A world seeking the meaning of existence is every being. Yet sometimes your account is empty, those close to you do not understand you, and you are not what they wish you to be. You wake up in the morning, and it is miserable.
One way or another, our life will end one day. So how should we decide this morning?
To be oneself, nothing else. To know oneself, without everything we have put into our heads that we must do. Not to be a rebel without boundaries, but to give oneself to the world in happiness. It is like ice cream: some people prefer punch, others prefer lemon.
Thanks be to God.